For a little over a month, I have been in a state of mind that has been weird to me. I have been trying to figure it out up until the other day as I sat in Sunday church service.

It was revealed to me what state of mind I had been in. The state of mind I was in was odd because I had gone through one thing that had happened that should have rocked my world and torn it apart and other things that have always left me wondering how I could fix them.

First of all, someone in my family, to whom I was close, died. I lost one of my best friends. He was not only my best friend, but my oldest brother. He was the one with whom I could talk hours on the phone. I’m missing that right now.

And, as always, financial ups and downs are always there and seems to never leave. I’m used to that. Then, there are problems I am facing that I don’t dare discuss here.

And lastly, I just can’t seem to get ahead in things I have to do —it’s got to be the hour I lost early this month due to daylight savings.

With these things that have happened, I should be crying, depressed, upset or moody, but I’m not. OK, I usually don’t let anything get to me because I’m a praying woman, but I thought losing another brother — I’ve lost three before this one — would have set me to an all time low, but it didn’t.

And the other things (which are just a natural part of my life), I’m always trying to fix; I feel they will just work themselves out, just as they have in the past.

But through it all, the thing that’s been weird is that I have been in such a peaceful state of mind that it made me feel that something else was about to happen in my life. Before recently, I would think, this is too much contentment, what is Satan up to now? Or what plan does God have for me?

Well, as far as Satan, I will have to say whatever you have in store for me, whatever ever problem you have for me, I have a God who cares; and to God, I’ll say, here I am Lord.

Having peace of mind, like the messenger said at church, is the best thing anyone can have despite the problems they face.

It just reminds me of a verse in the Bible, “not that I speak of want, but for whatever circumstance I am faced with, I have learned to be content.”

To me, that sums up my weird feeling, and it feels good to be in this state of mind.

Beverly Gibson is a Ferriday resident.